Obviously I wouldn't wish Autism on anyone, especially an innocent child. There are so many challenges that come with it, some easier to handle then others depending on the severity of their struggles. Nothing would make me happier then to have not been told my child has Autism Spectrum Disorder. Hunter has taught our family so much in his three short years... we have learned to be less judgmental, more patient, more appreciative and more forgiving. We've learned to never judge a book by its cover, to understand the importance of routines and how it affects us when it is changed and to be careful in our approach to choosing our battles. I could go on for hours about how much he has taught us. Most importantly though we have learned that being diagnosed with Autism doesn't mean he is doomed and that all the dreams we had for him are now gone.
I might spontaneously jump at the opportunity to cure him if I could but when I sit down and actually think about it I am not so sure... If I cured him he may be different, our connection may be different... so much could change I think. Is being "normal" really all that it is cracked up to be? Perhaps it is for some things, but not everything in life. I definitely don't want him to struggle any longer but it isn't necessary for him to be "normal". I don't need him to change so society accepts him. Instead I will advocate for him and share his story. He has truly taught us what the meaning of love is and he is perfect just the way he is :) The Hunter I know could be gone. I want for him to learn every skill possible to be successful, so that it would appear he has been cured. But please don't take away the uniqueness he brings to our lives that comes with his Autism diagnosis. If they see fit to change his diagnosis that would be wonderful too of course.
I have incredible bonds with all three of my sons but Hunters is uniquely different. It's very hard to explain but those who have children with delays, disabilities or medical concerns know what I am trying to say. I am a better person because of him. He has brought so much to this world and to our lives. More then I ever could have imagined. His legacy, when he grows old and returns to the home in which he shared with God, will truly be that of an angel unaware. I love my son more then anything! He touches a very deep part of my heart and inner self. God only gives us what we can handle and I am learning to cope and handle what Hunter has brought to our lives. Don't get me wrong, it is definitely not easy and there are days when I sit and cry. Just when I thought I had him figured out something happens and we are facing another meltdown. That can be said about any child though, lol.
He has truly taught us what the meaning of love is and he is perfect just the way he is :) If they could assure me his inner spirit wouldn't ever change than of course I would cure him :) But it isn't necessary for him to successful. He's already moved mountains, which is more then I can say for many "normal" people.
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